I can't actually believe that this blog is still going! I'm not one for really sticking to things. The amount of times that I have decided to start something (guitar, photography, a new exercise regime) and I've managed for a week and then lost interest. When I opened this blog 2 years ago, I did so for the purpose of venting my new mum frustrations, finding a place to deal with the depths of post natal depression and as a way to connect with people, which I was finding impossible to do in face to face situations at the time.
In a relatively short space of time I became part of the bloggers circle, I was chatting regularly with some great blog writers and getting some fabby feedback on posts I had written. I have always enjoyed writing but it is not an area in which I would've described myself as talented. I've since discovered that I do have a knack for self depreciating, humorous posts as well as honest, heartfelt and raw emotive posts. I think that this strongly reflects my character!
I have toyed with the idea of closing down the blog now that I am 'well' or should I say 'better'. I have thought about the fact that I never seem to find the time to blog now that I am working full time. However, after a bit of soul searching, I've decided to keep going. I would miss having this opportunity to lay myself bare to the nation! I enjoy writing about my life. I love to have a record of my little Grumpinator's early years. I think this year is going to be very interesting with some big changes ahead for us as a family. I would miss my blogging friends (you know who you are) and after the passing of Kerry recently, I feel I owe it to her to keep going.
I feel like I should do an overview of my year but it's been a pretty shitty one if I'm honest. Most of the joy and pleasure of this year has come in the simple moments with my boy. The moments when I look at him and feel my heart bursting with pride and adoration. The moments when he looks at me a certain way, hugs me unprovoked or tells me he loves me. It's those moments that have been significant for me yet I don't seem to blog about them! However, I've scraped the depths and come up with some highlights for you!
January
I started my 366 project so there are plenty photos on my blog (at least until I got fed up and stopped taking photos!). Christmas is a tough time for me in terms of post natal depression. I don't know why. Perhaps it is the extra stress on my emotions at this time of year. January was quite a dark month with posts about feeling
useless and about my
overeating in the wardrobe of all places. It wasn't all bad though. I went to see
Ed Sheeran in Edinburgh which was Amazeballs! I had a
night out in Stirling with one of my best mates which included an overnight stay.
February
I wrote one of my favourite posts about my
friends, My hubby showed me he could still be romantic, in his own
unique way. February was filled with fun times with JC and lots of
outdoor fun.
March
I was so happy to share in the joy of my friend
Paula's wedding. There was more outdoor fun with a trip to the
beach. There was lots of indoor fun due to rubbish weather so we some
baking,
painting and
water play - mummy of the year award!
April
Saw the
arrival and the sad
departure of our first bunny, Rabbie :( JC got his
first bike! We got the opportunity to review a Polarn O Pyret jacket which
JC wore constantly throughout last year. My Dad, Barbora and my little brother
Danny came over from Czech Rep for a visit. It was lovely to spend time as a family.
May
JC developed a love for
horses! We got some lovely weather which meant lots of time
spent outdoors. My Mum and Step Dad got an
allotment which meant loads of veg for us! We got a new rabbit (
Boris) who I am happy to report is still alive! We investigated the option of sending JC to an
outdoor nursery. Our good friends,
Greig and Fiona got married. I blogged about how my
weight is holding me back from having another baby.
June
My life at work took a bit of a nose dive. Things were pretty much awful. This is when my
366 started to fall by the wayside. I met up with my
bestest Alana for some emotional support and cake of course! Things got so bad that I knew I needed to get out. So I picked myself up, put on a suit and went for a job interview -
which I got! This change was bitter sweet. It meant less commuting but a return to full time employment which I still haven't adjusted to.
July
In some sort of moment of craziness, I decided to embark on a 5km a day for 100 days challenge. I raised £200 for Alzheimer's Scotland. I blogged about my Grandad losing his mind to
vascular dementia.
August
I didn't blog for the whole month. I think I will need to do a back blog for this month as I can't believe that I didn't even blog on JC's 2nd birthday! Anyway, we had a big party at the house and we went to Almond Valley for a kids party. I started my new job the next day which is probably why I haven't blogged this month. I was incredibly busy!
September
I wrote about the positive impact that
walking was having on my life and how I wasn't really cut out for
cycling.
October
We saw that start of JC's
vivid imagination and we started taking him
ice skating which he just loves!
November
I blogged about making children more
resilient and I blogged about my friend
Kerry (who blogs at Multiple Mummy) as she was in
hospital after a brain haemorrhage.
December
We had much fun
reviewing toys from Ikea. I wrote a post about
toddlers being capable of torture. Sadly, I blogged about the
loss of people in my life this year including an inspirational woman. RIP Kerry, you live on in our hearts and minds.
Phew! What a year! I can't wait to see what awaits in the year to come. Thanks to everyone who reads this blog and for the support you have given me over the past two years.
xxx
