I came across a parenting carnival which runs every Friday (namely, The Friday Club). This week I have to write 5 things I want JC to know about me. So here goes . . .
John Connor - Here are some things you should know about me . . .
1. I love to tell stories. I think I have inherited it from your Great Granny Morris who used to tell me the most amazing stories when I was a little girl. She had me convinced that she kept a reindeer in her hut! I don't write my stories down but I think that one day I might. Your dad says that I like to exaggerate but I tell him that I like to over exaggerate because I like to make my tall tales sounds as interesting as I can.
2. When I was a little girl I used to believe in God. I was very religious and went to church every Sunday. I went to church until I was 18 but then I lost my faith. I don't quite know where it went but I know that I miss it and I think that when you lose it, it is very difficult to find again. I don't want to taint your beliefs, I want you to find your own faith and I hope you have something to hold on to when things get hard in life.
3. I like to watch you sleep. Sometimes I let you fall asleep in my arms, even though people think that is the wrong thing to do! I just love letting you snuggle in and feel secure enough to close your little peepers and slip peacefully into the land of nod. We bought video monitors so that I could watch you sleep without disturbing you!
4. I can't really swim. I am terrified of the water but I take you swimming at least once a week and I have even dunked myself under the water so that you won't be afraid. It is really important to me that you learn to swim and that you are respectful of the water but not scared of it. It fills me with so much joy to take you swimming and you are helping me to overcome my fears.
5. You make me a better person. Before you came along I could be a very selfish person and I was really quite lazy most of the time. You changed all that, you have given me a greater perspective on life. Sometimes I feel quite scared that I am responsible for you and that you depend on me for everything. You need me to get it right because I am shaping the adult you will become. That scares the shit out of me and I worry that I might fail to give you the best possible start in life. I can't begin to explain how much I love you because it's not a feeling I can articulate. I am sure that despite my self doubt that this will be enough to get us through. If not then we will blame your Dad.