I haven't take part in this meme for a good few weeks *slaps hand* but I think it's about time I took stock. I am currently sitting here with a really bad throat and ear infection which really has brought me to my knees. I hate feeling ill. I try to ignore the early signs and power through until it just gets too much and I have to go to bed Well I went to bed and couldn't sleep so I thought I might as well be blogging! Anyway bed rest is not so easy to do with a 9 month old boy and I have just started back singing with the band. However, I refuse to feel sorry for myself and I am going to dig deep for my reasons of cheerful and gratefulness.
I'm grateful for and cheerful about . . .
1.Letting Go
We have stopped breastfeeding :( This was a huge decision for me as I wasn't ready to give it up yet. For the past few months JC has been showing signs of disinterest in the boob as he hates lying back to be fed. He is dead nosey and likes to see what's going on when he is drinking his milk. I felt that keeping him on the breast was more for my benefit and inability to let go. I was sad for a good week after his last feed but I now realise that he is so much happier being able to drink his milk from a bottle or a cup. It was such a natural progression for him and I should be grateful for that. It was a beautiful bonding time for us which I will treasure forever.
2. Relaxation
Although April has been a busy month there was time last week for some relaxation with my friend Jemma who treated me to a lovely spa day. Like most mums, I am more than happy to give up my 'me' time for my gorgeous little bundle but when an opportunity to be treated comes along it makes me extremely cheerful!
3. A listening Ear
I had my first counselling session for PND this week and it went really well. I went in with the opinion that I was 'better' and that I wouldn't need this. I basically gave the poor woman a run down of my life and more importantly the past 9 months in about 15 minutes. When I got to the end I had a wee bubble. I think it was a relief just to get it all out and look at it as something that is now past. I think I have established that on a day to day basis I'm fine and I wear my mummy mask with pride. However when JC has an off day and the Grumpinator returns, I have flashbacks to that dark time for me when he has 1 - 4 months old and I am terrified of going through that again. I certainly felt lighter after talking to the lady who is to work with me for the next 6 weeks so here's hoping that the progress continues.
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